"if you want to feel alive then learn to love your ground"

well, hello to you! i actually woke up at eight this morning. impressive, right? i went with audrey to help with what i thought was a moms' bible study at the church, but it was really just a play group for moms & kids from the community. it was really fun & the kids were so precious but it was pretty exhausting. i took a four hour nap this afternoon. rock on. 

it's occurring to me that emotional breakdowns will just be a regular part of my life for a while now. after my complete breakdown the other night, i thought i would be feeling better. audrey called it breaking through the pain barrier. but as it turns out, there's still pain on the other side of the pain barrier. awesome. i had another breakdown yesterday. {someone like you by adele is a terrific crying song, by the way} i felt better afterwards. & today, i was watching one tree hill & someone nearly died. that set me off crying because i was so afraid she would die & my ready emotions make me susceptible to crying at the drop of a hat. {what does that saying even mean? why would you drop a hat?} i am just trying to focus on what i love about being here. what makes me happy. here. i think of home often & even long for it. but i know that i am here. now. it will pass me by all too quickly & i will miss out if i don't concentrate on living in the present. carpe diem, i say. 

ningunas fotografias de hoy. sorry. there wasn't much to see anyhow. 

good night to me. good day to you. i love you all dearly.